I’ve been unemployed 18 months. Initially, I tried to find work that might use my strengths. Which is only a teensy bit removed from my experience – I’d been moving in the right direction – but too far, it seems, for hiring managers. Five years ago, a career switch might have been possible; not so now.

As employability ebbs further away, I’m finding myself lying to myself *all the time* in my applications, in a bid to just get anything that will keep food on the table. It’s hard to think of my next gig – which will be awful and underpaid, undoubtedly – as a stopgap. It will set the salary and terms for the role after that, and the next.

I’m honestly horrified by immediate future. This might help me shape an interim view. Printing, and doing.

Now I would like to share with you all my life:
I was considered an INFP (we shall not remain categorized, we are at will to change) the dreamer! (In the past my mom always told me to dream, not long ago she’ll say’ stop dreaming and do something with your life. Now in the present my wife tells me “you dream too much, your so intelligent, your words are so inspiring and motivating and so right but you do nothing worthy, you should do something good with your life and that mind of yours”) I was in learning disability classes all through primary and secondary schools. Always in class daydreaming, and barely passing grades on mostly D’s. I actually got kicked out of high-school for too much fighting. However that did not stop me, I got my GED while volunteering in boards of the communities, and starting business but never sticking with them, what a-shame. I always had a drive, a drive when I would be alone, absent from the technology and family, I actually grew, successfully. I was more productive. I found out it was actually my personal habits, and material distractions that stopped me from being successful. Even though it can be hard to avoid such impediments, it can be had. I had it ruff then, and now… with a wife and kids, taking care of my kids, and to support wife so that she may finish college, it was difficult. It takes no strength to drive will, rather a heart, mind and spirit combined.

I was an introvert, however I changed everything I can to improve, to become extrovert and stay in between, by choice. I attended public speaking seminars, and other positive life changing seminars/classes. “If you don’t move, you gain nothing! If you move you gain a piece closer to success.” To this day I continue to grow, beyond my dreams.

I am forever grateful for being an INFP, it made me street-smart and book-smart.
Want to know more, about me?