But no no, everything unfolded as i started on the course… I had already taken the test and it placed me as a (1) At the first day in the class of the course my opinion was that our goal was to be the dot in the middle of the enneagram, to be able to be all types at once.

The first week passed by and i ended up converting to (1), but that gave me a headache, so i came back the next day in class as a (4) and by the end of that day, when i left class, i had converted to (7)
After the weekend, on the first day in the second week i converted back to (4). And then i stopped. As the weeks passed by, i stopped, i simply just had to stop, because everything we learned on the course, i could relate to, every type. And not just a bit, but enormously.

The weeks passed one after another and it was not until only the last two weeks that i found out who i really was. I had to go back to my childhood to find myself. And when i did, it was like coming home from a long journey, everything was covered with dust, but left untouched as when i left. I kept my jacket on and would not tell anyone on the course, that i had found home, until the last week.

I am (6) but with a wing in both (5) and (7) and i have used many years in (3) with a wing in both (4) and (2) and when im leisurely im always in (9) with a wing in (1) and (8)

It is not easy, that is for sure. My zodiac is lion and my zodiac ascendant is scorpion. And i had an 8 year long foreign upbringing, from i was 5 years old. So this explains most of why i am so adaptive.

But bottom line is, im very… Very frustrated!. I dont know what to spend my life on. Everything goes from clear to blur, and when i think i have it, i lose it again. My wife knows me better than i do myself and she knows all of my “personalities” and have helped me a lot.

I get an idea and i get them in tons, but not just (7) ideas, but from every enneagram type. When i go into a thing im hooked for a week or two, then its boring or doesn’t give me any meaning in life, but im struggling to achieve and maintain a structured life, but then again not to structured. I want an education, but then again i have dropped out of so many, because i find the learning not sufficient enough. I see the holes and bring them up and dont get feedback on my question. A lot of my learning, visions, ideas and wisdom tends to slip out of my hands and drop down my own black (5) hole to be forgotten and never see the day light, so others can benefit from it.

It might all sound exaggerated my hey! thats really me. (6) tends to exaggerate when telling his or hers story.

Best regards
Casper – Denmark

I totally stumbled into a job a few years ago as a court reporter with a freelance firm with about 50 employees statewide. The central office has one location while the reporters are situated around the state, working from their homes so to speak. We communicate with the office via phone and email, receive our assignments and travel to those locations, where we record depositions, examinations under oath, hearings, etc., then type up the transcripts at home (in our pajamas, if we want). The central office handles all the printing, billing, scheduling, etc. It combines things I’m good at (I can type awfully fast, enjoy producing a tangible finished product and meeting new people) with an unpredictable schedule that keeps me from getting bored and snippy (i.e., administrative assistant – UGH). I see my co-workers a few times a year as we get together for the company christmas party or regional lunches. These are always just to spend time together and hang out, much like you would with family (well, if your family doesn’t suck).

It’s funny being able to look back at past jobs now with a better grasp of my personality to understand why I was so unhappy in them. Before I just thought there was something wrong with me! To anyone else reading, Socrates’ advice is the best: “Know thyself.”

Marie